Haunt of Fear!

Tonight we began to lay the edited parts of the film down on the timeline. Now it’s looking like a movie. There is even some music layed down, though i suspect the rights won’t be aquired for most of it. Still, I feel like the Pope because I made something great. Finally.

And yet, somethings missing…

If you’re already familiar with my woes of loneliness, then stop reading.
What lies ahead is more of the same.

I can’t tell you why it is so important to me to be in a somewhat normal relationship with a somewhat stable female with a good head on her shoulders and, if i’m lucky, happens to be as cute as she is smart.

Maybe it has something to do with my fear that one day 40 years from now, prompted by an “odd smell”, a neighbor is going to find me alone in my modestly decorated home being devoured by my 17 cats.

See, at some point you have to stop and say ‘Shit, maybe it IS me. Maybe all these characteristics I THINK I have to offer are really the most off-putting things in the world: being a southern gent, a good cook, a good listener, and all that bullshit” And if all this is true, and I could have been spending the last 15 years being a selfish asshole, then I’m gonna be really pissed. ‘Cause I’m sure being a dick is a lot easier, and a lot more fun.

I don’t (think) I believe all that. Anyway, I made a movie about it.

We’ve all seen it. assholes get girls. Great girls, too. Girls we believe we deserve. But you have to ask yourself if you’d want a girl that’d let herself be a part of some fake relationship championed by a ass who ignores her and doesn’t offer her the smallest amount of respect. We have ALL seen it, time and time again, and there is no logic in it. And there never will be. And yes, we still want them. We tell ourselves that we can be heros to these girls, and give them what they deserve. But what if…
What if they are already getting what they deserve? What if some girls like or need to be with guys that don’t care if they stay or go? I won’t pretend to know what this shit is all about. I gave up a long time ago.

Hell, all I can do to make any sense out of it is create a fictionalized account for the screen. And even then, I feel odd because while the characters are complete asses and treat women like crap, they come of very fucking likable. I can guarantee that some girls will fall for my lead actors based completely on their performances as total dickweeds.
But this need to not die alone doesn’t consume me, it’s just a looming mystery that sits outside all I do. Wondering how my days would be different, my nights would be less trying, and my art would be better if I could share some…well, just share something.

Eh, If nothing else, I’ll get many years of material out of it. Until the whole thing bores me and I buy my first cat…

I don’t know.

All we can do is try to enjoy the daylight.

Movie soon…

Alright, smart guy. Here’s a real challenge.
No Googling…

Sorry about the language (not really), but My movie is almost edited!
HOLY FUCKING SHIT.
I know a few of you people are artists, and you know the joy of watching your art come to light, but you won’t believe how this full-length feature shit feels. It’s like I’m the first guy in the 6th grade to touch a pair of boobs.
I like boobs.
So, I go to work and make the coffee, and I come home and edit. By monday, I should have a very rough but completely watchable version of my movie.

holy. Fucking. SHIT.

So when i’m at work wondering why i can’t find a decent girl, own nice things, keep good money, or be completely healthy, i know this…

i have a movie. holyfuckingshit.

Sorry I been away so long! This editing/working/sleeping/emailing stuff takes a lot of time. here is the news.

We’re moving right along cutting this picture, and it’s looking pretty. We have a date in mind for a viewable cut, and it’s soon… so be on the look out.
Also, props to Sean for correctly guessing the line from last post. It was Return of the Living dead.
guess this one, wise guy!

Anyway, I’m still here, and progress is chug, chug, chugging along. Soon, you’ll be able to see my first baby: Lounge Act.

Can’t wait…

J’

A quick movie update, then some random crap in the mighty Marvel Tradition…

thursday , the crew gets back together briefly to shoot some pick up photography for the cool first act photo montage. we had some problems the first time out (the mamnger of the place we wanted to use never showed up) but this time should be cake. then, this weekend probably, i start to edit with the help of muh good friend and all around nice guy peter.
i can’t wait! this is the fun part.
and the answer is yes, there will be at least one Lucas stlye scene wipe-transition. you happy?

and now my random thought.

If you know J’mel, then you know i loves the zombie flicks. i loved the original dead trilogy, i loved James Gunn’s remake/reimagining of dawn of the Dead, i even loved 28 days later though it was not a true zombie flick, the homage was appreciated.
here is my problem. Romero has always said that the films weren’t really sequals, but stories all taking place in the same disaster. fine, but it kills me that each film had products and automobiles that accompanied their times. I mean, the dead start rising in 1968, it stands to reason that chevy is gonna stop production on it’s cars, right? now I know how expensive it would be to set each consecutive film with products that existed when the apocolypse went down, but i love that sort of attention to detail. I’m just saying is all…
Okay, i’m done.
oh, major props to the person that can tell me what the title of this post comes from. sorry 3way, you can’t play. advantage and all.
bye. Lounge against the machine!